About 3 years ago this time marks the anniversary of when I decided to change my life. I had come to realize that somewhere along the way I had lost myself… I had been neglecting myself… my true self. Though I have no regrets about the choices I made in the past, I knew the path I was on wasn't going to get me where I needed to be. It was time to begin a journey of self discovery. It was time to make some changes. One of the most difficult was ending a marriage of over 10 years, however, deep down I knew that we both had new chapters awaiting us and it was the right thing to do.
The years that followed were some of the most difficult and challenging of my life. I struggled pretty hard with depression and ohhh the loneliness… at times it was crippling… but eventually things got better. (THANK YOU x1000 to the people who were my rocks throughout this time.)
Though it was hard, I've probably learned more about myself in these past few years than I had the whole decade prior combined. I also learned a lot about people in general. So great! Mission accomplished… now what?
I made it through the hardest part and I'm feeling good, yet there's still this emptiness… like I'm stuck in between chapters. When does the next one begin? Is this it? I feel like I'm stuck in LIMBO… left hanging on for dear life, trusting that eventually I will make it to the other side.
Some days it feels hard to put on a brave face and keep hanging on while your feet are dangling. But hang on you must. The challenge now I feel is patience as you float along and wait for the universe to throw you more of the missing puzzle pieces. Eventually it does. One here, one there. Slowly the picture starts to become more clear.
I feel like just this year, my picture is starting to finally come together. The other side is in sight and I look forward to placing my feet on solid ground once again. I look forward to starting the next chapter!
